Rage and Redemption
I have often thought there is a connection between lust and anger, sex and violence. I have personally struggled with an adult version of temper tantrums (e.g., low grade irritability, bad mood-ism, displays of human wrath, personal indignation, judgments of others, etc.). In fact, I have sometimes referred to myself as an “R-rated guy.” Years of anger management classes, sex addiction recovery work and, of course, my community of dedicated Jesus followers, have helped bring a measure of stability, peace, and redemption to my broken life.
Anger is an effective drug. Uncontrolled negative emotion creates a massive surge of energy and the addict is consumed by its power. He feels no pain as he presses deeper and deeper into his false reality. With a dark sense of fulfillment, he masks guilt with the dopamine rush derived from his unrestrained expression of anger. He is dimly aware of the havoc his rage causes but easily justifies himself...
“I am doing the right thing.”
“They are wrong and deserve this treatment.”
“I am called by God to do punish wicked.”
Rage is destructive but the ‘rage-oholic’ can’t stop himself, especially when he deludes himself into claiming divine authority. He is driven by a force greater than himself to coerce others by the strength of his personality. Nothing can stop him. Nothing; that is, except the Lord and His community of believers.
Paul, at the height of his fury, met Christ and everything changed. He was compelled by self-righteous anger and described in the Luke's account of the early church as “being furiously enraged.”
“So then, I thought to myself that I had to do many things hostile to the name of Jesus of Nazareth…
And as I punished them often in all the synagogues, I tried to force them to blaspheme; and being furiously enraged at them, I kept pursuing them even to foreign cities.”
For Paul, it took an extraordinary encounter with Jesus Christ and then the community of faith before he could see himself for what he was… out of control.
Remarkably, God did not perform a spiritual lobotomy to cut out the ‘passion center’ of Paul’s brain. Rather, He miraculously redeemed it. The amazing reality is... Paul had the same personality before and after his encounter with Jesus!
There was a difference, of course. Paul’s driven and forceful persona came under the control of the Holy Spirit and his passion was re-directed toward the way and purpose of Christ. This man was destined to become the inspirational powerhouse of the early church and the motivating force for the expansion of the kingdom of God into regions untouched by the Gospel. This was no job for a milk-toast. God needed a real man. A dynamo. Paul was that man.
I too must learn relinquish control of my negative emotions to Him who is able to redeem my passion and make me wholly zealous about His cause alone. I need not apologize for the force of my emotions but I must earnestly seek Christ’s grace to display them in a godly way. I pray to become a ‘fully redeemed and forceful man’... fully engaged in the forceful advancement of God’s kingdom on earth.
“From the days of John the Baptist until now, the kingdom of heaven has been forcefully advancing, and forceful men lay hold of it.”
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The sketch above is entitled "The Angry Man" and used by permission of Calcutta born artist Samita Basu whose amazing work you can view at http://www.samitabasu.com/. In the artist's own words: "This is a conte pencil drawing. I was intrigued by this elderly relative of mine because whenever I said something that he didn’t approve of, he would go into a sulk and he work himself into a kind of repressed anger. I noticed how his facial muscles changed when he was angry. This drawing doesn’t resemble the subject, only the expression".